What Am I Doing and Where is This Going?

Questions I ask myself almost daily while thinking of this blog. I read several different blogs weekly, if not daily and I find myself comparing what my blog is to the blogs I read. Then I pull myself together and remind myself that it doesn't matter what other bloggers are writing about when it comes to my own because, it's just that: MINE.

I'm doing my best to let go of what I feel like this blog SHOULD be. I'm going to stop over thinking what I post and I'm going to start going with the flow. I'm not a professional blogger and probably never will be, so why not start enjoying this thing that I use as my creative outlet and run with it?

I have no idea what that means, but I hope that you'll see more of me and my "goings on." Why not, right?

Stay tuned, y'all!

"My blogging life is basically goalless. I like the zen nature of that, and paradoxially, it improves results."

-- Seth Godin

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